My very long day

OKAY sobrang habalang ng araw ko kahapon =)))))))))

I feel so in the mood to blog so…. alam na! haha )

 

i met mich:)
I was late for 10minutes? Sorry for making you wait!! Ugh. I hate the fact that we have “practice” yesterday -the reason why we weren’t able to hang out for long. :< nevertheless, I was able to:
1 give her my grad pics (’cause i always forget to give her those each time we met in the past)
2 give her the keychain from Brunei (another thing i always forget to bring naman. haha)
3 show her my planner (a.k.a diary. hahaha)
then again we tell stories for a short while and bid our babays :<

went to school for the “pratice”
If only i knew that we would start an hour later than the agreed time, i would have gone to school an hour later too.. just so i can be with mich for a longer while. grrrrrrrr!
Since ma’am Che, ma’am Kaycee, and ma’am Roxie can’t make it… ate Joy, ate Erica and ate Queenie(spelling?) were the ones who taught us. I was kinda confused ’cause their lessons were quite different from the lessons taught by ma’am Che. so good luck na lang sa’min BUKAS. :O
… we bathed in the rain. It’s so much fun. :> Good thing, i brought extra clothes.

tandang sora.
I went to Mcdo t. Sora and lunched alone. [di naman monday kahapon, ewan ko ba bakit mag-isa akong naglunch sa mcdo. haha.] Cheenie arrived behind schedule, but it’s okay. sanay naman na ako mag-isa at naghihintay. (//.-) =)))))))) waddahel. Everything’s okay na sana but when she rummaged her bag, no wallet was found. she kinda panicked ’cause all her money’s in there and the HILLSONG TICKETS too. Her bag’s really hollow and it has a zippper and buttons so it’s not possible that her wallet was snatched. hmm. so we went to her house only to find her wallet in her room. ano ba lola! )))))) finally, i got my ticket and paid her. :> It’s already past 3 when we arrived at Mcdo again and she has french class at 3 in UP so she hurried her way, only to learn that their class was canceled for the day. HAHA. If i knew better, i would have not left her behind.

Convergys.
My karatemates were chlling in convergys and since i have nowhere to go, i went in to rejoin them. First, we were in Box O’ Rice, they ate lunch there. When i arrived, yuka was interrogating ate Queenie whilst Pat was video-ing. Others were playing games or doodling, not sure. I suggested to play ang-ni-ay-ni dahil walang shortage ng papel. hahaha. play-play, super laugh trip ) my favorite: ang puso ni ate Erica ay dinilaan ni Pto(Pat) haha ) Then we had our vain sessions. Even the staffs of Box O’ Rice were with us. walang pinatawad! ))) super fun.
We got bored so we went to starbucks. We knew that if we stay in starbucks, we will surely cause chaos so we decided to stay outside starbucks(still in convergys) and sat on the floor. ang skwatter lang. ))))) we played a game again(i can’t remember the name of the game) and ends up at yuka’s consequence: dance yuka! she did. galing-galing :> After, we all got over it except ate Joy. she announced with conviction na siya daw #1 fan ni Yuka. okay ate Joy :l ))) She was pleading for yuka to do the wave again (she even used ate queenie!) but the fun was interrupted by a guard saying “bawal dyan.. di pwede tumambay dito. . .” so we had no choice but to move out.

savemore. 
We walked to savemore and continued the disrupted fun After some minutes, Yuka was already fetched.

Pat’s house
we went there to get anna’s hoodie which i handed to anna in school. yun lang. haha. went back to savemore… me waiting for “my brother” whilst them, i dunno. just having fun, i think. ) When “my brother” arrived, i left my karatemates.. i dunno what happened to them after that.

HOD recital
I had no idea about it until my brother invited me to watch with him last last night. At first, I didn’t want to because it’s gonna be at night. but he said that we’ll just wait for bea to finish dancing and we’d bounce off. (only to find out that his bea had the LAST dance) so wait wait wait. Dumating na sundo niya, di pa kami makauwi dahil di pa sumasayaw si bea. sabi na lang namin, magcocommute na lang kami pauwi. ang tanga lang namin, sana nagpahintay na lang kami. :/
Kevin was there. ANG TABA NI KEVIN! )))))))
After the long wait, the finale it is. may bonus pa, swerte nga naman ng “kapatid ko” ))) kasi yung crush nya, kasabay na sumayaw sa group ni bea. )
When the show ended, we saw his crush near us. I tried to force him to talk to her but he didn’t. It was so devastating for my part, nasayang lang effort ko. :< ang torpe mo pare! dahil dyan, tinatakwil na kita. di na kita kapatid! di ako proud sa’yo! :l okay, drama. ))) tampo effect.. good thing i saw bea and kevin again so i walked to the screening gate with them, not minding my ex-brother. ))))))

the struggle.
———(some things i wish to keep for myself. for us. hehe)
basta we left the school at 9ish? We struggled our journey home. with the rain on and stuff.
I arrived home at 10:30

 

when i arrived home, i washed myself and all. . . then i realized i haven’t eaten dinner yet so i looked for food and ate. I planned to go online but the phone rang. i answered. it was my friend. so i decided i would not turn on the computer so i could focus… she’s on for rough times and i know she needed my full attention. i did my best to voice out my thoughts which i know could help her and make her feel better. her situation’s really tough. if i were in her shoes, i wouldn’t also know what to do. some of the things i said, now makes me think i should have not said. things that made her feel bad… but i’m caught in the middle. I wanted to tell those things because those are plain truths. She has the right to know the truth. she need the truth. and if i were her, i would be willing to taste the bitter truths than the sweetest lies. I’m just.. not sure if it’s really my job to spill the truth to her. ugh. it’s so difficult! I didn’t want to make her feel bad but i don’t want her to dwell in filthy lies. Oh hey, that thing is just one of her 3 major problemas. we talked until 2ish.. out of fatigue, i drift off to sleep in no time.

 

And today i counted how much i have spent yesterday, and it was P830.oo :l :O )

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I would never forget May 16.
Think about it this way… May i6 is just an ordinary day, just an ordinary day. but i swear it would be hard for me not to remember this. 
just like may25. march15. february 29. . .

my friends

I have these friends, the left and the right.

Left: don’t talk to right! I hate right!

Right: i don’t care if left never talks to me anymore… but my heart still beats for left!

Left: please do me a favor…just don’t be friends with that right anymore!

right: why wouldn’t left wanted me to be your friend?

ME: i don’t know to you!!!! O_o

sullenness

I don’t know what went up my spine, i just, i dunno.. I feel lonely. I can’t explain why because I, too can’t undertand myself.. I hope this feeling move out of my system when i wake up tomorrow. :<

I hate it when I feel so helpless. I know I don’t have the right to feel this way because many other people have heavier problems and harder life than myself. But does it even matter?

 

I’m tired of putting up my fake smiles and happy faces.

 

 I am not okay.

idle day :)

today is idle day! hahaha )

i should have done a lot of things and i should have gone to a lot of places but i didn’t. Instead, i just stayed inside the house and remain idle the whole day. funny, isn’t it? )

[X] go to up
    for the tennis lessons

[X] go to hospital
    for the x-ray

[X] go to the dentist
    for the check-up

I’m so lame today. Please, just forgive me for that matter. ) It’s jus that… i’m so not in the mood. I still feel worn out. It’s friday.. don’t i have the reason to feel this way? ) I don’t even think there’s something so bad about it. )

Just let me cope up with the life stuggle I’ve encountered lately. ) And besides, my body’s literally aching because of the training yesterday. sorry. ) Mind you, i still need loads and loads of sleep to make up for the previous nights I’ve been up so late. )

yesterday

So i guess i would have to “get use” of not having posts on an everyday basis. EVEN IF I SOOO WANT THEM EVERYDAY.

Anyway, the reason why i wasn’t able to blog yesterday is our internet connection sucks!!!!! i dunno what’s the problem and my knowledge wasn’t enough to fix it. grrr. so i just went to bed and fell asleep. time: 930. yup. nine-thirty. ) ’twas so damn early. ) but i woke up ’round 11 then fell asleep again by 1am.

My gosh, i was really exhausted yesterday.. wait, let me tell you my story in a chronological order. :>

yesterday… yeap, yesterday, i went  to bed at 4am. reason? ALAM NA. then i woke up @ 8am. I feel like it was indeed, God’s will that i woke up early so i can attend training.. so there, i prepared myself. eat a little. brush my teeth. bath. commute going to school (ang init sa loob ng fx :S). training.. shemay, ma’am che was there. yup. Supposed to be, thursday=no ma’am che day.. but naah. so the training was so damn tiring. O_o afte training, took a bath again in school.

RAINING. so here, the real life struggle begins. Considering the fact that i was so clean and sweet-smelling and fresh… i walked from save more to crossed the damn over-pass, over looking the stinking swamps and mud sticking on my feet and legs. darn it!! Okay, i have an umbrella but the rain was so dripping and the raindrops are noticeably bigger and heavier than usual (or is it just that i’m not used to walking in the rain? or whatever. it still sucks).

MCDO. there i found the reason of my first struggle. Abby. She’s my friend and i love her that’s why even though she hasn’t said any word, i forgive her. LOL. so mushy. ) so when we met, we went straight to the comfort room so i can wash my feet and legs and slippers.. i was so talkative.. telling her almost everything that comes in my mind. ) i missed abby! She’s one person i can tell everything. anything. and what’s best is that she doesn’t seem to get tired of listening to my damn stories.. and some stories which were not really mine to tell but i tell her anyway. )

TAXI. Weird, most of the cabs doesn’t wanna bring us to trinoma.. it’s far daw eh. So when one cab asked us that he’ll go flat rate:P120, we said yes. stupid. (earlier, i said.. taxi tayo? sige pero libre mo? and then she said.. sure sure). when we were in the cab, abby checked her wallet only to find P140 and her precious coins in. :O STRUGGLE. I told her i only have 200(from which i have already spent for the fare and load). ay damn.. extra stuggle!

LOAD. Waiting in front of savemore, i texted abby to tell her that i’m already there.. only to find out that she’s in mcdo, not having an umbrella so she had no choice but to stay there.. when i was to text back, i realized i have no load na! So i was forced to spent P20 for my load. thanks to sulitxt 15. :>

going back…. i volunteered to pay at least half of the P120-fare but she said no.. so okay. We arrived at trinoma. safe and sound. We met her Neil and neil’s bandmate, Nico. Asked if we have eaten.. abby’s done. but me? what, I’m starving, alright? haha. ) Nico’s done and Neil’s not… Nico said we can eat at burger king. I said i haven’t eaten there before.. i dunno what’s yummy there. We can’t decide what to order so we just stepped out and went to mcdo.

MCDO (this time, in trinoma). Fortunate enough, Abby’s already eaten her lunch and also Nico so they didn’t buy. Struggle! she has no choice but to buy nothing. and i have no choice but to eat. I’m starving. I’m starving. :O While eating, Neil’s about to throw us a joke about mcdo’s catsup when nico cut him and said “oh tapos pagbukas, mayonaise lumabas.” sobrang bumenta yung joke niya samin ni abby.. as far as i know, it was his first joke for us.. the other’s i cannot remember clearly.

TIMEZONE. i was discerning hard if i had to load my card too. Gosh, thanks to abby she said that i don’t have to, out right. so i didn’t. I don’t have the money, okay? so it was a relief. But we had fun though we haven’t spent a penny in timezone. :> we played basketball, and we forced them to try the hammer king.. (er, nico’s so hard to win over. i told abby, he’s the first guy i that i know who’s hard to persuade.. especially when girls are already using their pa-cute effect. darn). So nico didn’t try.. just neil. Then we played the ones with touch screen.. the game asks us to press the pictures which are identical. I know, it was a lame game but Abby and I had fun.. yeap, just the two of us. told yah, neil’s hard to win over and nico’s harder.. way harder. :S I also met Mara with my other old batchmates. She automatically assumed that I’m having a date. WTH? We don’t seem to be like that. really. but it was okay because i texted her an cleared things.

CINEMA. The boys want to watch a movie.. struggle!! but they just can’t decide which one to watch so abby and i excused ourselves and went off to the comfort room.

CR. Struggle!!! Abby’s got no enough money. And i only have enough for myself just incase.. We literally looked like freaks in the cr! ugh. Imagine the two of us counting every cent we’ve got in the cr. we had no choice alright? I tried to borrow money from mara and pat they have nothing to lend. awww. so we went out of the cr praying that we could find a way.

CINEMA (again). Abby was in the middle of telling neil the truth and the lie. ) she lied. haha. If i as in her place, i would have lied too. she kinda acted like she doesn’t wanna watch a movie so we just roam around the mall. ) struggle :O

FOOD COURT. Our or maybe just my legs and feet are already aching tired so i requested us to have a seat somewhere. Nico was like “tara, sa starbucks na lang kaya tayo..” OKAY!!! STRUGGLE!! O_o In my mind(and abby’s mind)… oh shit. money money money! Until Nico said… “sige wag na pala dun, wala kong pera. haha” whatta RELIEF! But wait, while walking, we were kinda heading to DQ! :O Thank goodness we didn’t stop by. haha. we went straight to the food court. whew. )

GAME. Abby had an idea, a great idea it was. I will not explain the game anymore… but i feel bad because the boys are not ”sport”.. told yah, they’re really hard to win over.  I hate it. We tried to improvise the game into somethign easier for them but they still don’t wanna play. BORING.

AWAY. yeap.. we walked away. At first Abby and I thought they are going behind us but they didn’t. okaaay. so we just went in kamiseta and fit some dress. OMG. I fell in love with the one i tried. :S after a while.. Neil texted abby asking us where we are. He said they are already outside the cinema and he asked us to ge there. struggle!! we had no choice but to go to them. :S

CINEMA. Nico said.. “sorry, hindi ako spontaneous“. okay. Atleast he said sorry. but still. Anyway, abby got no choice but to tell neil the truth and asked him if he could pay for her. He said okay. yehey! haha. But i can feel the shame for abby’s part ) Abby’s not used of being broke. I know that very well. ) So there, we watched the super hero movie. green jokes over loaded. hahaha. i already watched the movie online but it was still different if you watch in the big screen and if you watch it with boys around. haha. okay.

GOOD BYES. The feeling was real awkward. I don’t know what outside or maybe inside forces are holding us back. So yeah, we just said good byes. Abby and I went to the food court where her family is waiting for us. We ate halo-halo from chowking and went home.

I arrived her like 8:30ish. I can’t connect to the internet so i just gave up and went to bed.. it was like 9:30 but i didn’t care. i was so weary and drained so when i lay on the bed, i instanteneuosly fell asleep. haha. around 11, i woke up.. i was hungry but i was so lazy to jump out of the bed so i just watched tv for a while. around 1am i fell asleep again.

i told abby.. you know even if neil and his friend’s like that, it’s okay. At least you have seen each other. Think about me and yeah, he’s so far and we can’t see each other. It’s summer and we cannot go out because he’s like thousand miles away from here. hayy. I told her i envy her for that and she should be thankful about seeing him anyway. :>

by the way… i also tod her that i already miss kuya yoni. asked her if we could go out with him one time.