My very long day

OKAY sobrang habalang ng araw ko kahapon =)))))))))

I feel so in the mood to blog so…. alam na! haha )

 

i met mich:)
I was late for 10minutes? Sorry for making you wait!! Ugh. I hate the fact that we have “practice” yesterday -the reason why we weren’t able to hang out for long. :< nevertheless, I was able to:
1 give her my grad pics (’cause i always forget to give her those each time we met in the past)
2 give her the keychain from Brunei (another thing i always forget to bring naman. haha)
3 show her my planner (a.k.a diary. hahaha)
then again we tell stories for a short while and bid our babays :<

went to school for the “pratice”
If only i knew that we would start an hour later than the agreed time, i would have gone to school an hour later too.. just so i can be with mich for a longer while. grrrrrrrr!
Since ma’am Che, ma’am Kaycee, and ma’am Roxie can’t make it… ate Joy, ate Erica and ate Queenie(spelling?) were the ones who taught us. I was kinda confused ’cause their lessons were quite different from the lessons taught by ma’am Che. so good luck na lang sa’min BUKAS. :O
… we bathed in the rain. It’s so much fun. :> Good thing, i brought extra clothes.

tandang sora.
I went to Mcdo t. Sora and lunched alone. [di naman monday kahapon, ewan ko ba bakit mag-isa akong naglunch sa mcdo. haha.] Cheenie arrived behind schedule, but it’s okay. sanay naman na ako mag-isa at naghihintay. (//.-) =)))))))) waddahel. Everything’s okay na sana but when she rummaged her bag, no wallet was found. she kinda panicked ’cause all her money’s in there and the HILLSONG TICKETS too. Her bag’s really hollow and it has a zippper and buttons so it’s not possible that her wallet was snatched. hmm. so we went to her house only to find her wallet in her room. ano ba lola! )))))) finally, i got my ticket and paid her. :> It’s already past 3 when we arrived at Mcdo again and she has french class at 3 in UP so she hurried her way, only to learn that their class was canceled for the day. HAHA. If i knew better, i would have not left her behind.

Convergys.
My karatemates were chlling in convergys and since i have nowhere to go, i went in to rejoin them. First, we were in Box O’ Rice, they ate lunch there. When i arrived, yuka was interrogating ate Queenie whilst Pat was video-ing. Others were playing games or doodling, not sure. I suggested to play ang-ni-ay-ni dahil walang shortage ng papel. hahaha. play-play, super laugh trip ) my favorite: ang puso ni ate Erica ay dinilaan ni Pto(Pat) haha ) Then we had our vain sessions. Even the staffs of Box O’ Rice were with us. walang pinatawad! ))) super fun.
We got bored so we went to starbucks. We knew that if we stay in starbucks, we will surely cause chaos so we decided to stay outside starbucks(still in convergys) and sat on the floor. ang skwatter lang. ))))) we played a game again(i can’t remember the name of the game) and ends up at yuka’s consequence: dance yuka! she did. galing-galing :> After, we all got over it except ate Joy. she announced with conviction na siya daw #1 fan ni Yuka. okay ate Joy :l ))) She was pleading for yuka to do the wave again (she even used ate queenie!) but the fun was interrupted by a guard saying “bawal dyan.. di pwede tumambay dito. . .” so we had no choice but to move out.

savemore. 
We walked to savemore and continued the disrupted fun After some minutes, Yuka was already fetched.

Pat’s house
we went there to get anna’s hoodie which i handed to anna in school. yun lang. haha. went back to savemore… me waiting for “my brother” whilst them, i dunno. just having fun, i think. ) When “my brother” arrived, i left my karatemates.. i dunno what happened to them after that.

HOD recital
I had no idea about it until my brother invited me to watch with him last last night. At first, I didn’t want to because it’s gonna be at night. but he said that we’ll just wait for bea to finish dancing and we’d bounce off. (only to find out that his bea had the LAST dance) so wait wait wait. Dumating na sundo niya, di pa kami makauwi dahil di pa sumasayaw si bea. sabi na lang namin, magcocommute na lang kami pauwi. ang tanga lang namin, sana nagpahintay na lang kami. :/
Kevin was there. ANG TABA NI KEVIN! )))))))
After the long wait, the finale it is. may bonus pa, swerte nga naman ng “kapatid ko” ))) kasi yung crush nya, kasabay na sumayaw sa group ni bea. )
When the show ended, we saw his crush near us. I tried to force him to talk to her but he didn’t. It was so devastating for my part, nasayang lang effort ko. :< ang torpe mo pare! dahil dyan, tinatakwil na kita. di na kita kapatid! di ako proud sa’yo! :l okay, drama. ))) tampo effect.. good thing i saw bea and kevin again so i walked to the screening gate with them, not minding my ex-brother. ))))))

the struggle.
———(some things i wish to keep for myself. for us. hehe)
basta we left the school at 9ish? We struggled our journey home. with the rain on and stuff.
I arrived home at 10:30

 

when i arrived home, i washed myself and all. . . then i realized i haven’t eaten dinner yet so i looked for food and ate. I planned to go online but the phone rang. i answered. it was my friend. so i decided i would not turn on the computer so i could focus… she’s on for rough times and i know she needed my full attention. i did my best to voice out my thoughts which i know could help her and make her feel better. her situation’s really tough. if i were in her shoes, i wouldn’t also know what to do. some of the things i said, now makes me think i should have not said. things that made her feel bad… but i’m caught in the middle. I wanted to tell those things because those are plain truths. She has the right to know the truth. she need the truth. and if i were her, i would be willing to taste the bitter truths than the sweetest lies. I’m just.. not sure if it’s really my job to spill the truth to her. ugh. it’s so difficult! I didn’t want to make her feel bad but i don’t want her to dwell in filthy lies. Oh hey, that thing is just one of her 3 major problemas. we talked until 2ish.. out of fatigue, i drift off to sleep in no time.

 

And today i counted how much i have spent yesterday, and it was P830.oo :l :O )

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I would never forget May 16.
Think about it this way… May i6 is just an ordinary day, just an ordinary day. but i swear it would be hard for me not to remember this. 
just like may25. march15. february 29. . .

done right.

FINALLY… We’ve finished the processes needed to be undertaken in UPLB. whew. Going there’s awfully exhausting. :l

hmm… I’m so tired, i can’t think of proper things to say, eh.

 

Anyhow, I’m so happy and kinda excited. HAHA. I’ve got my own room outside uplb compound. and when I said own room, just meant to say that I’m gonna be all alone in the room. Gosh. )

Emeghaaad.
tomorrow’s schedule:
>>training in SHS
>>NEED to buy hillsong tickets in cubao
>> isaw trip with “tablemates” in fil2

Hope I can go to all of my lakads. )

 

Oh darn, I left my wallet in the car. AMP. >:(

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I’ll stop the world and melt with you. c;

sullenness

I don’t know what went up my spine, i just, i dunno.. I feel lonely. I can’t explain why because I, too can’t undertand myself.. I hope this feeling move out of my system when i wake up tomorrow. :<

I hate it when I feel so helpless. I know I don’t have the right to feel this way because many other people have heavier problems and harder life than myself. But does it even matter?

 

I’m tired of putting up my fake smiles and happy faces.

 

 I am not okay.

i SUPER want to go to baguio. :(

i can’t decide.

here’s the thing:

I’ve been wanting to go to baguio again ever since I’ve known pauline(which is like 4 years ago) and the chance is aleady here, finally. My karatemates are planning to go to baguio on the 22th of May so we could watch the National Karate Competition.. and also to visit pau, call it an outing or trip or whatever. Point is, I do want to go with them. I don’t care what the other odds are ready to stop me.. until

I learned that my Dad’s gonna arrive from Brunei on the 23th. Yup, on the 23th of May! OMG. And duh. I don’t think I’d be able to go to baguio. Much less be allowed to go to baguio. No chance, is there? (

Why? why oh why do fate have to do this to me? Why? I don’t see reason why these things should happen on the same time..

When I asked my mom about it… she just told me “go talk to your dad. ask him if he’ll allow you to…” My gosh, so helpful huh.

Now things are getting more and more confusing. and i feel super sad because

ETO NA NGA LANG MAGPAASAYA SA’KIN,

PARANG PINAGDADAMOT PA.

they say

They say love is just ound the corner… then you couldn’t i find love? I want love. I need love.

They say week starts on Sunday. really? Why do I feel so tired.. supposed today is the first day of the week, i should be hyped.

They say every one is equal. indeed? Then why do others have more and others have less?

They say happiness is a choice. How come everytime “i feel happy,” i feel as though i’m just fooling myself?

They say.

idle day :)

today is idle day! hahaha )

i should have done a lot of things and i should have gone to a lot of places but i didn’t. Instead, i just stayed inside the house and remain idle the whole day. funny, isn’t it? )

[X] go to up
    for the tennis lessons

[X] go to hospital
    for the x-ray

[X] go to the dentist
    for the check-up

I’m so lame today. Please, just forgive me for that matter. ) It’s jus that… i’m so not in the mood. I still feel worn out. It’s friday.. don’t i have the reason to feel this way? ) I don’t even think there’s something so bad about it. )

Just let me cope up with the life stuggle I’ve encountered lately. ) And besides, my body’s literally aching because of the training yesterday. sorry. ) Mind you, i still need loads and loads of sleep to make up for the previous nights I’ve been up so late. )

busted.

Sorry my dear, but there’s no better way available.

I told him what i was asked to tell him. But i haven’t told him everything.. not even half of the thing. should i tell him? do i need to bother myself more? to wound his already broken heart? there’s no chance for him.. i feel sad. he’s still my friend after all. the thing here that my stomach can’t digest, is the fact that i was the one tasked to tell him it. understandable? or not. whatever. I’m so stuck in the middle and i have no choice but to stay in my place.. wait until the two boulders in my sides get tired of bumping into each other. when will this thing end? :S

I feel bad seeing them unhappy.

I can’t breathe. why do i need to get involve? so this is how it is being a good friend. I’m tired. But still i’m fighting, i’m still here, standing. carry on.

i’m so freakin’ tired… as always.

50 ODD things about you! If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you!

1* Do you like cheese
- i like cheese as much as rats like cheese. )

2* Have you ever smoked heroin?
- nope
3* Do you own a gun?
- not yet.. but sure i will. LOL.
4* Your favorite song?
- hmm,. with you-chris brown.

5* Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
- depends.
6* What do you think of hotdogs?
- kids like them. )
7* Favorite Christmas song?
- uh i dunno the title eh. )

8* What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
- milk or juice :>

9* Can you do push ups?
- yes, of course.  

10* Favorite super-hero?
- spiderman as always

11* What’s your favorite piece of jewelry?
- none in particular, but i love earrings. just the simple ones. :)

12* Favorite hobby?
- internet-ing, of course. 

13* Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?
- i don[t have that, sorry. :> it’s not necessary, ya know )
14* Do you have A.D.D.?
- wth?! )

15* What one trait do you hate about yourself?
- i’m moody and sometimes, i need certai people to drive me, ahhh.
16* Middle Name?
- Tesoro
17* Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment
- should i register to sulitxt? I’m so damn tired. I need to blog.

18* Name 3 things you bought today
- cinema ticket. burger mcdo. that’s all i guess. :>
19* Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
- water, juice, milk

20* Current worry right now?
- should i register to sulitxt?!??! tell me, yo.  

21* Current hate??
- hate the fact that i can’t hate him even a bit. :S
22* Favorite place?
- SHS. wahahaha! um, eastwood and katipunan. OMG. i miss those places to bits. :S 

23* How did you bring in the New Year?
- very very serene compared to the typical Pinoy way.. just small gathering and them we went to mass.

24* Where would you like to go?
- out of the country. Gosh, please take me.. i need a break!
25* Name three people who will complete this and return?
- no one. wahaha

26* Do you own flip flops?
- yeap

27* What shirt are you wearing?
- old roxy shirt i own for so long :>

28* Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
- i like to sleep. that’s all. LOL

29* Can you whistle?
- nope.

30* Favorite color/s?
- red. blue and green too sometimes.

31* Would you like to be a pirate?
- nah.

32* What songs do you sing in the shower room?
- Random.
33* Favorite girl’s name??
- my name :>

34* Favorite boy’s name?
- haha, james?

35* What’s in your pocket right now?
- none. 

36* Last thing that made you laugh?
- my friend’s funny jokes and stories :>

37* Best bed sheets as a child?
- comforters. yes. haha

38* Worst injury you’ve ever had?
- when i broke my thumb’s bone, aw.

39* Do you love where you live?
- hmm..i don’t like it  i but don’t dislike it too. )

40* How many computers do you have in your house?
- just three.

41* Who is your loudest friend?
- pat?!

42* How many dogs do you have?
- two
43* What is your favorite book?
- twilight, eh?

44* What is your favorite candy?
- pochi. haha

45* Favorite Sports Teams?
- my team, of course :>

46* What song do you want played at your funeral?
- the lively songs. please. haha!
47* What were you doing 12 AM last night?
- thinking. thought i’ll be crazy over that person. wah.
48* What were you doing before answering this?
- I umm, reading new moon.
49* Who is the person you want to talk to right now?
- a lot. hay.
50* What is the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
- great, i fel asleep pala last night. ) thought i’m never gonna do eh!